So I've recently started college, well a few months ago and I'm shocked about how fast these last few weeks have gone and I've realised compared to my bag I used to take when I was in high school I have changed a lot of things and I carry so much more in my bag so my bag is from urban outfitters and is a backpack which cost me £10 in their sale and this is what I carry inside.

So I'm going to start with my notebook, I have this NU notebook which has split sections. I picked their notebook because I have 4 subjects and the book itself has 5 split sections and since I don't have a bit bag it's much easier to carry around instead of five separate books.

I also Carry 4 pens with me two are just simple plain pens whilst the other one is a one with four colours (it comes in handy with English lit for analysing the poems) I also harry one highlighter around (once again for English lit or to highlight key words in my notebook. I don't actually own a pencil case as I really don't like them especially when I carry my purse and make up bag I have no room so these tend to lie in the bottom of my bag.

Also in my bag I carry my make up bag which usually consists of a broken hair brush (I'm hoping by the end of the year to get a tangle teaser.) I carry some hand sanitiser which was from primark for 60p.i carry my real techniques powder brush, maybelline the falsies mascara my Rimmel stay matte powder and my maybelline baby lips intense car, collection cover up stick and the lipstick/ lipgloss I wear that day which this particular day I wore my topshop lipstick in the colour beguiled. Also in my makeup bag I carry painkillers and sometimes cold relief tablets. 

Since I'm travelling further to school I carry my purse which of course consists of money for my dinner and travel and a little bit of my own money in case I want to go into town after I finish on my early days.  i got this purse from newlook for £9.99. 

( i got the picture from Newlook website as i couldn't get a decent picture of the purse, sorry) 

I also carry my juice cube (from John Lewis it cost £25 if you were wondering) which is a charger for my phone and at the moment my phone battery I broken so my phone is dying by around lunch time. So I need to be able to charge it. Anyways you charge it like you would a phone and the cable it comes with you change the end to fit your device so at the moment the end for mine is for an iPhone 4s. This little thing is such a life saver, I recommend these if you travel around a lot or if your out all day and your phone doesn't keep a charge.

I also carry a bottle of water with me because I've found out recently that I drink a lot of water up at college so I have a 720 ml water bottle. 

I also carry an umbrella I case of any bad weather. I also carry my student ID in my bag so I make sure I have it there with me, I usually clip this onto the draw string around the top to make sure I know where it is and have it to easily access as I need it out as I carry my pop card (it's like an Oyster card for the train but the Newcastle version) and I use that to pay for my ticket on the train. 

And the final thing I carry in my bag is my iPad mini as there's some days I have massive breaks such as a Tuesday where I have two hours free, plus free wifi and I sometimes need to do homework or some research so it's quite handy to have or of course just to play games on whilst I'm on the metro.

So this was my what's in my school bag post I hope you enjoyed it and I'll post again shortly 

Emma 

Final Day Of Year 11

So today was my final day of school and year 11, I finished my final exam and said my goodbyes to the people I talk to everyday and just the people I grew up with. Today’s been filled with all sorts of feelings I’ve gone through stages where I just didn’t care and was just wanting to leave, others where I was starting to actually realise what was happening and realised that today was my final day, it was the last time I would see everyone together. This ranged from people I have knew since first school, or who I met in middle school or even people that I’ve only just met over the last four  years.

(photo took by my friend whilst we were getting our shirts signed) 

During these last four years I’ve had great memories, bad memories, arguments, fall outs, make ups, met/ talked to new people and watched everyone mature. I would be lying if I said I didn’t cry because I  did. I cried when I had to go my separate way from my friend who I have grown up with since I was four! I have walked to school with her for four years and I’ve had lessons and all sorts with her, we’ve had our ups and downs, but we over came them and I'm upset that I'm not going to see her every day.

( i absolutely love this photo i'm on the left, my friend Elisha is on the right our final walk home) 

 I also learned that I haven’t talked to everyone in my year, I’m not one hundred percent close with everyone and I usually talk to a small amount of people, but today I actually talked to a lot of people. I got my shirt signed and when I got home I read over all the things wrote and I was upset because I don’t know what’s going to happen to most of these people in the future all I know is they’re going to live their lives and I wish them the best of luck.

(my signed school shirt there was more on the arms and front) 

 I can’t believe that these last four years have flew over and now that my exams are over I can’t do anything about how my results will turn out, but all I know is these results will determined if I get into college or not and right now that has gone out the window. This is the beginning of my summer, I have been put under stress since April and I’m finally relieved but completely emotionally and physically drained.

Today has been full of reliving memories from over the last few years and full of goodbyes. It’s been crazy and so surreal and right now I feel quite empty and I’m at the point where I feel like ‘what now?’ I don’t know what to do but I know that I have plenty of things planned and this is just the beginning of my journey and if any of you have experienced this then you’ll know the feeling and you’ll know that this is just the beginning…

Emma

Reflecting on Life

So I'm trying something different this week I've been having some interesting thoughts about life in general and I feel like I need to share my views on life.

Life? What is life? Most things have a life, Plants, Animals and humans we all have life, seed are planted, they grow into plants and die, animals grow up and live a life where they, eat, sleep, run, hunt, mate, etc.. Whilst our lives are completely different. We’re born, we learn, we grow, we develop, we make friends, we laugh, play, go out, get a job, fall in love, get married, start a family and we grow again until we die.

Our lives are funny, everyone is different and everyone’s life is different. Some people have better lives than others, whilst others are more successful, or other people fall in love quicker than others. Everyone is different and I’ve recently realised how funny life is.

I’m still in school I’m a week away from finishing which is pretty terrifying I’m doing all of my exams and soon I’ll get my result and that’s it, it’s up to me what I decide to do I’m in charge of my life, I’m in control. everything I do is my choice and my choices determine my life, so do I go to college? Uni? Or get a job (I know terrifying thoughts.) Anyways I’ve realised how different our lives change whilst we grow up and go through first school, middle school and high school. You see each other develop, you see people change for better or for worse and you see people mature.

You go through this period of time with so many people who you have grew up with from the beginning or met along the way. I never even talked to half of the people in my year until this year and I have actually realised that I should have talked to a lot of them sooner as they would have made me a more outgoing person and in a way I regret not getting closer to them earlier, but I can’t help that and In a way I don’t care. I mean the people in my life now are the ones I hope to keep.

I honestly can’t wait to finish school and I can’t wait to leave a lot of people because in a way a lot of them don’t mean anything to me, as harsh as that sounds but I believe you only need a few friends to help you through because they are going to be the ones who care about you most and not some random girl or boy from your class who you barely know or may talk to on a rare occasion.

But on the other hand I will miss a lot of these people because I’ve grew up with them I have seen them from small children like myself grow into a teenager and I’ve seen people through both their worst and best times, I’ve seen people fight and fall out and make up in minutes.

 I do wish I got to know a lot of them better but I couldn’t have asked for better people to grow up with especially in high school, a lot of these people were brilliant and kind but others weren’t but I don’t care about the people who I didn’t like or they didn’t like me. But I can’t wait to see what happens to the people who actually put effort into school and their exams.

In a way I’m ready to leave school and move on and actually start my life, but I’m also terrified it’s a big step and it can be quite nerve racking but I can’t wait to go off to college and meet new people and start my adventure of life, I hope to travel to some great places and document it whilst hopefully doing something in journalism or fashion/ beauty or maybe even photography who knows?

But life is a mystery we can’t predict our own futures only time will tell and until then we have to make the most of live and enjoy it whilst we can, so whether it’s traveling somewhere or meeting new people. Make the most of it and just carry on what you love doing. You may as well live life to the fullest as everything else is uncertain, but it’s true don’t let the little things get you down, just do the things you love don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise just do it.

It’s your life and you’re in control so the decisions you make effect your life so you make them don’t let anyone else have a say in it and if you love something do more of it, it makes you happy and that’s all that matters,

Emma